Dear Paris: you're pretty and I love you

Hai Assalamualaikum,

Procrastination at its best - tulis blog time finals when it actually been ages since I last checked in here. Hantu apa malam2 ni? No idea.

A sneak peek on what I've been reading, apart from my biochem notes.

"Mengecilkan hati org adalah berdosa, berkecil hati juga adalah berdosa. Tetapi lebih besar dosanya jika kita berkecil hati"

It raises some eyebrows perhaps? *mine did before I know the reason behind this*

What I understand is, org yg sakitkn hati kte tu, mmg dia berdosa la. But, kte lagi berdosa if kte terasa sbb semua yg jadi tu dtg dari Allah jugak. Org tu sakitkn hati kte is like one form of ujian Allah bagi dekat kte. Kalau kte terasa, maksudnye kte terasa dgn Allah la. Not good. Not good.

Baru sedar benda ni. It seems like I didn't handle my tests as good as I hope I guess. Huehhh. It's a nice wake up call don't you think so? Come on, live up to your name.

Hi London. I miss you so much that it hurts. The smell of the air. I miss it too. As much as I miss the summer air from my first summer in Ottawa

ps: Adding Tswift and a bunch of 'punk-rock' dudes, this post has every little thing that I love. *i'm awesome like that. bahahaha*

like a Dumbo

and i woke up with a heavy heart.

it feels the same.

the difference:

it's raining instead of snowing.

Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal berperang itu adalah sesuatu yang kamu benci. Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui. (2:216)

it'll pass. it's friday

there's a locked garden. you can come. but not by force. unlock it wisely. as i do want you to get there.

not simply staring at the locked door and leave. as that'll break my heart. - jane doe

Big fat L for lame.

Hai, assalamualaikum.

Ok. Post membuang masa bermula lagi. Which shows that I have tonnes of work to do - assignments to submit and reports to write. Hence, comes this post.

So, as you guys know, new semester has begun and I loaded my semester with 6 subjects; Biophysical Techniques and Applications, General Biochem, Practical Biochem, Molecular Genetics, Advanced Organic Chem I and Experimental Organic Chem. Bunyi subjek konon2 gempak tapi biasa je. It's basically a mixture of bios and chemistry. Susah jugak. Course load mmg tak cukup tangan. Tapi masih lagi membuang masa.

Ok, maybe I should stop before I spilled things that I shouldn't. Sorry for wasting your time.

p/s: i wish for you to be completely honest with me. I don't like tug-of-war. I hate not knowing. So, a little help with the enzyme assignment please, prof? i have zero clue in mind. Hah. Ok. *shut up sarah*

Maybe i should create a twitter account la. 140 words of complaint won't take half an hour to write and surely won't waste more than 5 minutes to read.

Random #7

02:40

this is pretty much a post written to kill time waiting for subuh.

Hurm.. Let's see.

1) I keep repeating these songs: With me, White Horse, Love Story... Well, you got what I mean. Basically a sum 41 song and tonnes of Taylor Swift's. Tak. Tak boring pun dengar. I'm up to anything princess-y and fairytale-like.

2) My room is a mess. Pretty amaze how a year can double-triple your stuffs. Specifically clothes and purses. Ada hati lagi tu nak beli this one handbag I saw in Winners.

3) I don't usually write about what I've been listening to and how my room looks like. Told you this post is for nothing.

4) Bubble tea + New York cheesecake + company.. *drools*

5) Did I say there's a handbag I want in Winners? $30 only. Thank God my Atiqah's side wins over Farah's only at times when my bank account shows a double digit amount.

6) Once, I ever wish to be in an accident where certain years, certain memories are erased. Once a friend said "what happen if you completely erased your memories?". It's not like you can choose which one to be erased. Ala.... It's just a wish. It's not like I really want that to happen pun.

7) Mosquitoes here really love me. I have multiple love bites on my arms now.

8) It takes 7 until I realize how.. ehem.. ludicrous this post is.

A futile attempt it is.

03:04

p/s: in response to natasya's request, i give you random #7.

Troubled double double

Sometimes..

It's best to leave a locked door unopened.

To leave a secret garden untouched.

But, once opened, get a grip of what's inside.

If not,

Leave. Silently. Go unnoticed.

Leave nothing behind. No hard feelings or whatsoever.

I promise.

Sorry. It's because I care. About her.. :)

At times, certain things are best left untouched.

tik tok tik tok

It's hard to do the right thing. To say all the right words. And yet, still able to smile like nothing happened. When you've been given choices to do what's right you'll find it painfully hard to do it.

Imagine sticking a needle in your hand yourself (for any medical reasons i would say). Most won't probably do it i guess.

But what if..

Someone else sticks a needle in your hand rather than you do it by yourself? No other options available but to bear the pain.

We might have been given an option to do what's right and leaving out the bad ones at times. For some, a wisely decision has been made. But not for others. It seems, distinguishing between black and white is easy. But the grey one has always been harder.

Some people has been presented with those options multiple times. Taking the wrong turn at each. That would be me. Pfftt.. Until the moment when there are no options left but the only one that you've been avoiding each time. True enough, the strongest motivator for you to make those right decisions is when you are left with nothing but those.

I may not be strong enough to stick the needle myself but someone else has already done it for me. The pain. It's bearable (macam kene gigit semut je). Arigatou~ Dah lame xkene inject kt tangan nih. heheh.

Take some from my plate, chew, swallow. Then only you can talk - Amirah Izzati Yaakob

5 Mins Break from Genetics

Semalam blk dr library naek basikal sapet.

Naseb baek xlanggar tiang lampu.

Naseb baek xterlanggar bicycler laen.

Tapi jatuh atas divider tepi canal lah.

Naseb baek xjatuh dalam canal. Haha.

Baek beli ni dr basikal.

Ok. Dah. Sambung study balik. -.-'

I wear shades to school today. Yeay!

Hey ho~! Spring is here. :)

the sunshine. the flowers.

very much awaited for.

as much as i'm waiting for my own private sunshine.

pretty little dandelion. see how easy it is to be blown away. as easy as i am when getting carried away :)

Come spring. I long for a fresh start.

may you find happiness in your life awk~ :')

i'm letting you go now. as what you ask from me.

fly high as those pretty little dandelions k.

will always pray for you. will always be here.

study animals pulak. lagi nak midterm lagi menjadi nak tulis blog. ngeks.