It's a complete circle now, Sarah.

Full pergantungan pada Allah. Cakap senang. Nak buat, susah. I admit. It's hard for me. Why? Because my "either or" decision has some biased towards the "either" rather than the "or". So to accept there might be chances the "or" would happen is hard. Extremely hard. Impossibly done when I think about it sometimes.

Let's put it this way.

You want to buy a candy *an apple chocolate I might add*. You know it's not good for you, but you seem to like it so much. It's easier to just buy the chocolate and eat it rather than not buying the apple kan~

Why?

Coz your decision on buying the candy is parallel to what you want, whereas not buying it is a total opposite on what you really want eventhough it might be good for you. Geddit? *abaikan this post kalau xpaham*

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Hey you!

Bukan melawan kuasa Allah. Bukan juga rase diri ni pandai sgt. Bukan juga sbb xbersyukur. It is just so damn hard. Saya tak kuat. Lemah even. Benda kecik je pun dah jatuh. Come on lah. Get up! *I want to but I don't think I can*

"Anak ayah kuat kan~"

Mane budak tu? Hilang ke? COME ON!!!! GET UP!!! DON'T YOU DARE GIVE UP SITI SARAH AZMAN!!

EXTREMELY pissed-off dgn diri sendiri..

"people don't like reading emo posts la sarah. takpe. i was hoping no one will read this"