On the edge of a cliff

"I think too much"

Hai Assalamualaikum,


It's time to get something back in perspective. There will be times when you're on the verge of breaking down from over-analysing situations, juggling things and suppressing feelings. There will be time to vent out some of the anger *in a good way I mean* just to gain back the perspective you lost during this stress moment.


Some take a walk to clear his/her head. Some involve in rigorous activities where you'll be able to release some bottled-up pressure. Or probably cry. Or sleep.


Huahhh. It's been a LONG time since I last over-tire myself physically so as to release some bottled-up pressure I'm feeling now. It's not that big of a problem if you could just stop over-analyzing EVERY single thing, Sarah. Thinking 10 steps forward when actually none has been taken. Worry yourself when it's not going to solve the problem itself.


Take it one step at a time perhaps?
Well, it's supposed to be a marathon, not a sprint. You can't afford to fall apart during critical moment like this. One month before you reach the finishing line. Allahu musta'an.

"Oleh itu, maka (tetapkanlah kepercayaanmu) bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan.

(Sekali lagi ditegaskan): bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan" - (94:5-6)

Go read the Quran. Perform tahajjud. Dzikr. Allah is always there to listen. Only He can put you at ease.


Can I just scream? When the truth is, you're just tired from all the drama you're in.

Seriously, this is beautiful. Boleh rasa nak nangis 

weekend morning blues

Hai assalamualaikum,

morning is always the best part of the day kan? good for a long walk alone.
morning walk and writing help put myself in perspective.

One of the days where I feel like being such a lazy bum. Big time. A whole pile of laundry that needs to be folded, my turn to cook, spring cleaning my room, sorting out notes which are everywhere around the house and do some studying. and here i am, sitting like i don't have anything better to do.

which is not good. as i hate spending my weekend like this. *inhale. exhale* 

"dah baca ma'thurat belum pagi ni?" - tiqah.

hee~ belum lagi. that's probably it.

burung yg kecil time nabi Ibrahim kene bakar pun, lagi hebat semangat dia. sebab berusaha jugak nak padamkan api time nabi Ibrahim kene bakar walaupun his action won't even help to put out the fire. You're a big girl, ada akal, bigger than the bird, semangat pun patut lebih lagi la. So, the lesson learned? what's important is not the outcome but the action itself.

Ingat, Allah pandang usaha, bukan hasil.

And now i shall go and not sleep. teehee.

here's your fav. now chop2! go do your work. :D

the one stress i can't handle...

...is when i don't have even the slightest motivation to act on something. not even a simple "come on, just try je"
and that scares me. big time.


Hai assalamualaikum,


dad's not picking up the phone, nor did he reply to my text message. i really need to hear comfort words from him right now *even though i know i won't do half of what he said to me*


huarghhhh


i. just. can't. do. it.
i'm stress about this whole presentation since the day the prof gave us the journal to present on. i'm not worried about the presentation itself as i know it'll be over in 20 minutes. i'm more scared in the Q&A session afterwards. they asked killer questions which previous presenters manage to answer, which do nothing to calm me down about this presentation. i know we'll be butchered during Q&A. 


Worst-case scenario: we'll be slaughtered clean by the questions. plus our journal talks a whole lot about genetics. something i'm not fond of. something i'm not good at. *why did i always ended up taking subjects/doing presentations/writing up term paper/signing up lab that are genetic-related* grrr.


Even the worst-case scenario does not motivate me to read the journal. i just want to sleep. and wake up probably on friday then? T.T


Allahu Musta'an


(now this is what i call complaining. is chanelling out inner negativity)